Monday, August 24, 2009

To My Baby Adelaide

My Dearest Little Girl,

As I write this to you, you are walking around in a diaper, 4 of mommy's necklaces and a pair of flip flops that someone left here after your 2ND birthday party. You are walking back and forth between talking to Daddy while he takes a shower and to Mommy's closet to find more treasures! Mommy has had a hard day today with you, filled with joy, love, sadness and over coming pride. You just asked me what I was doing, I replied " I am writing you a letter" your ever so cute self said " A letter Mommy, Oh YEAH, a pink letter?" That is you summed up! Everything is exciting, everything is new and most importantly everything is pink.

Today you ventured into the world of "school" (technically its children's day out but, same thing). You were so excited to go to school this morning, you woke up all ready to go and telling me Goodbye before we had even put your shoes on! When Mommy & Daddy got to the school you were so excited to see Miss Ellie (your niece), you both had your backpacks on and tootled into school! You were so excited, that was until we got to your classroom, somehow between the front door and the classroom door you had changed your mind and the next thing I knew you were running from the room backpack and all! Daddy & I sat down with you and explained all about the new & exciting things that you would do at school but you were not falling for it! At last you saw artwork from other kids and exclaimed " I do that," always going with the moment we excitedly told you about all the art work you would be doing in class!! Mommy showed you into your classroom, put your backpack in your "locker" and helped you wash your hands! I sat down with you while you got used to the idea of school and helped you take on the play dough! I mentioned that I needed to go look at something and I would be right back, of course you broke into tears saying "please don't leave me" your Mommy's heart was breaking but she knew you would have so much fun with the other kids as soon as she left. I darted out of the room with eyes full of tears and a very sad heart! I didn't want to leave you with "the fun kids" or to play outside, or have art time! I wanted you to do all these things with ME! But Daddy was there and he was our rock as always! He told me that you would have so much fun, you would love playing outside and would be an excellent artist!!!

I came home with a heavy heart, I found everything that I could to keep me busy! Even worked out for over an hour something I had given up on months ago. I got calls from Lucy and texts from Kim all saying that you were doing great and that you needed this! Gigi & Pawpaw kept me distracted by taking me to run errands and finally relented to my requests to pick you up after an hour! When I peeked through the window of your classroom door you were cradling your nap time sheet (somehow in the morning rush I had neglected to pack your "bankie"). I quickly opened the door & you came running to me crying as hard as you could. You screamed that I had left you "to play tennis", Gigi reassured you that we hadn't played tennis, only worked out! You were still so sad and holding onto my neck with an unbreakable grip! I carried you out of the school & nothing was breaking the grip you had on me, you told me again & again that you had "cried for your mommy." I held your hand and rubbed your fingers the whole way home! You didn't let me out of your sight the rest of the afternoon and I can not even count how many times you told me "I love you so much Mommy!"

My cell phone that is usually glued to my hand went untouched for hours, my computer was on idle & all my attention was on you & only you for hours after we got home! We recounted your time at school, we danced in your new shoes, you ate your school lunch & watched your Dora DVD over & over!! You would venture into the kitchen & visit with Gigi or Granny Jean but quickly come running back to the sun room to make sure I was still there!

You talked about school with a happy heart & you were anxious to give it another try on Wednesday! I was so happy to hear that you would consider going again, even though I didn't "need" this time away from you I knew that you needed it away from me.

I was so excited to tell you about the "Mom & Tot" ballet class that I found, it is only 30 minutes a week but, it is 30 minutes in a tutu!! You were so happy when I told you that we would be dancing together! I explained that we would go to dance class after the next time you went to school and you didn't even flinch at the idea of going back to school.

Adelaide you are the bright spot in so many peoples lives and I hope that you realize how amazing you really are already at just 2 years old. Mommy & Daddy love you so very much and we count our blessings with you every second of every day.

4 comments:

  1. you made me cry, super mama. i need to see you again veryyy soon. save me from my law books. bring your darling daughter up here and let's have dinner.

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  2. What a sweet girl! Love your letter to her. So precious...

    Blessings, Ginger

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  3. Oh my gosh, that is such a sweet letter! Awesome, awesome family!

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  4. cute blog! I had no idea you had one. I will add you on my list! see ya soon..we need to get together with Katie and talk about your party for HM. see ya!

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